2:21 AM
I wrote in my prayer request post that I'm weaning off of Klonopin. It's AWFUL. If you are a "regular" reader you may remember that I did this before. I went from 2 mgs to the 1 mg I'm at now. Now, I'm getting off. I'm doing .75 mg- 1/2 the pill and 1/2 of the other half.
Klonopin is not to be messed with, it's awful. I've been on it for a very, very, very long time. 8+ years. It's a terrible drug to wean off of because of the withdrawals. I have read so much, heard so much. You must go very slow because your body could go into shock, you could have seizures, even die.
The withdrawal symptoms I am experiencing are: restlessness, jitters, feeling like a crackhead who needs a fix (not that i would know how that feels), sweaty, shaky, insomnia, stomach pain, headache, body aches
I went to sleep tonight at 10:00 pm and woke up at 1:30 am. I will not fight it. I will watch TV, movies, read, blog, sleep when I sleep, exercise (hopefully), cook, do some chores, whatever... Even if I have to cry it out. Even if I am miserable through it, I will get through it.
Once I'm off for good, I will be FREE of it. I will feel better. I'm confidante that I will be able to do all I want to do. - get pregnant
- have babies and be a good mommy
- travel
- go to school
- write FOR REAL
I know that it's attainable for me. I've always wanted to be a mother. When I was a little girl, I had baby dolls and named them and loved them. I love children and they love me. Family is everything to me.
Labels: blah, illness, Klonopin, medication
